Hurt;Destroyed;Pain

I miss you so much, it’s such a horrible feeling.. I put all my feelings away for you, I am scared that when I see you all those feelings I have hidden away and stuffed down as far as I could will come out and then I am fucked.. 

You ruin every relationship I try and have, I know I will never be able to have another proper relationship unless it is with you. But the only times you actually seem to want me are when I choose to want someone else.. Its unfair.. I can’t just be happy because the only way I can be happy is with you.. :(

jhnnystorm:

tips for what to do after a really long cry because you’re probably feeling all kinds of exhausted and drained and i don’t want that for you in the slightest:

• take a shower and change all of your clothes even your socks and underwear. this is the first step to everything. 
• pour yourself a big, cold glass of water and drink it. all of it. once you’re done, get yourself a refill. this will boost u physically and emotionally instantly please trust me.
• grab a snack, something light that you don’t have to wait to prepare. i recommend a pudding cup, a piece of fruit, yogurt, a popsicle, or some crackers. 
• get under the covers. turn on something - tv, a movie, music, anything distracting. or consider calling a friend or talking to anyone nearby, even your sibling the next room over!!
• know that you are loved. you are important. you mean more than you know right now, more than you will maybe ever know. you are worth all the stars in the sky. you deserve to feel good. 

That’s so refreshing even reading ❤

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You’re going to think that the pain will never end, but it will.. But first you have to let to all in. You can’t fight it.. You can try to but it wont work. But its bigger than you, you have to let yourself drown in it. But eventually you will swim.. And then every single breath you fight for will make you stronger